he

he

i stumbled to follow
his footsteps

when really
all i wanted was to
catch up.

then we stood on equal ground,
and we laughed
and held back tears
and shared ourselves in the strangest ways.

it was then that i knew
he'd be a part of me forever.

perhaps that's why this
extended silence
is so difficult.

i know it's not right.

just his smile was enough
to calm me,
and now all i have
is his faint portrait
engraved in my head.

but it is not in color,
and slowly,
neither am

i.

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