journal-11/29/00

11/29/00

so...... i've made a major life decision.

it's been creeping up on me for months now... with hindsight i can see all the clues that were there all along-- and i of course just didn't take them as clues.

but here i am... i'm ok, and i'm happy to have this load off my back of "what am i going to do next?"

you see...

i'm moving back to texas.

back with my family... to get on my feet, to start over, to regroup, to get some financial stability, and i won't have to miss my family anymore.

i'm so relieved... you have no idea how heavily this has been weighing on me in the past months. i've given some indication here, in my journal-- and you've all seen the progression of admitting homesickness to the epiphany i had about boston not being where i belong, etc...

and now i just feel so relieved. and that relief tells me i've made the right decision.

i'll be moving back in mid-january. and because i'll be driving cross-country, i plan on making many stops in various states to visit with friends (and stay over... so i won't have a long drive from any one point to the next).

i've been planning this out very succinctly in the past couple of days... i told my boss yesterday-- and guess what? there's an opening at the dallas retail office... and i've wanted to be in a retail office all along, thought it suited me better.

i plan on getting my teaching certification in texas, which carries over to 33 other states i think.. including tennessee and new hampshire as well as many others.

ahh... i don't have much time here, but i plan on enjoying it!