journal-09/21/99

09/21/99

(yes i bought the new double cd this morning-- i couldn't wait [but the bill i should have paid can wait]...)

something happens to me when i listen to tori amos. it's almost like i automatically envelope into myself and shut out anyone else-- i become one with the music i'm hearing. and even if i'm not listening to the music, i tend to be a little snappy just after hearing it... almost as if private moments in my mind, in my heart are being interrupted when someone talks to me.

sound weird? well, i've been accused of being weird plenty of times.

she is beautiful, brave, strong... she's got guts and feminine charm. she's got a tender side and another side that's tough as nails. she is a leader for women's music who manages to lead a very private life.

her voice soothes,
and on the next track it cuts
a diamond wide open,
shattering it to pieces
so every one can have a tiny treasure
with her reflection shimmering through
the kaleidascope dimensions.

take me for a little ride--
send me to another planet
and as long as you bring me back,
i'll go.
as long as you trust
in what you feel,
you'll love me.
as long as you listen
to what's in your depths,
you will see me.
as long as you hear me
when i speak,
you will know me.
as long as you read
what's in my eyes
when i look at you,
you will see me
for who i am--
who i am,
who i am
trying to be.