journal-07/13/99

07/13/99

*grin*

I've just been reading through some of my old journal entries posted here on the web, and geesh! I must seem so depressed all the time. Do I? I certainly hope not!

In general I'd say I'm a pretty laid-back, strong individual who can deal with just about anything (although I may put up quite a fight, or fits of crazy stress, or whatever)... but when I write my journal entries, those are the extremes. When I write poetry I'm seldom feeling anything extreme (and that's a growing point from what it used to be-- I used to only be able to write poems when I was feeling drastically depressed or amazingly euphoric, but now I write when I'm in a blah mood or just a normal mood, whatever that is-- and that's a definite improvement, because my writing has vastly improved from the "fluff" [my poetry teacher in college called most of my early poems "fluff"] I wrote when I was years younger).

So. The bottom line is-- generally I'm pretty happy, most of the time.. and the entries that appear here don't represent ...

don't...

re...

um......

Why am I sitting here trying to explain my journal entries to you? Maybe I'm just trying to explain them to myself. I have no idea. Like you care.

Well.. maybe I'll just go make myself a rum&dr pepper (if you even remotely like dr pepper, i'd try it w/ bacardi dark rum... i actually think it's better than rum&coke) and watch some boob tube before getting my ass to bed.

(It was such a beautiful day today, hovering in the 60s and sunny... is it July, or is it actually October?)